I WILL............

I have had a very interesting experience in the last week. It is something that I want to put down for my children and my grandchildren and so may not be interesting to the general population>:) WARNING! There are no pictures.........

There is someone that I have always had very tender feelings towards. I have been thinking about them alot and in the past month I have had a very similar dream several times. In my dream I was supposed to go and see them and tell them some very specific things. Sometimes I am very leary of myself not knowing if I am being prompted by the Spirit or just making things up in my mind. And so I had this dream again this past week. As I was sitting in our Sunday School class, taught by someone much younger than me,( but again who isn't?), he was talking about the differences between Laman, Lemuel, and Nephi. Up on the board he had written the words, No.........I don't want to.............I'll try.......................and then in capital letters I WILL.....
Then he asked us who were we like when the Lord had need of us? I had an overwhelming feeling that the Lord was prompting me again through him. And so this time, I prayed, took a deep breath and told the Lord, I WILL. And so I did. It was actually a little terrifying going to this person and explaining why I was there, but I love them so much I have their best interests in mind and hopefully the Lord's. It turned out to be a very touching moment and I know this person knows how much I care about them, but I believe they also know that the Lord is very aware of them and the challenge they bare. I hope that I am able to always have the attitude of Nephi and say, I WILL, when I am asked to do the things he wants me to do. I feel that I have not always succeeded, and sometimes it has taken me longer than others, but I have a great desire to serve Him and am so aware of my blessings.

In the interest of making this blog my journal, I will write down another experience that comes to my mind when I felt a huge prompting and was terrified to do as I was asked. It was before my dad had joined the church and I had been doing genealogy work. I really felt that I had and still do, the "spirit of Elijah," and am very aware of family here and beyond the veil. I was literally kept up all night, and I mean I did not sleep at all, with so many thoughts running through my mind that I needed to tell my dad. I was up and dressed and at my folks house by 8 AM the next morning, all but ready to bust. I don't remember now the things that I had said to him, but I do know it had to do with unifying our family and how much he was loved and needed. I am not exactly sure of the time sequence, but it was not too long after that, that he was baptized. It was just a small moment in a series of things that had happened to him to let him know that the Lord was aware of him and now was the time for him to put his life in order. What an amazing series of events that lead up to his baptism. And now he is a sealer in the St. Louis Temple. It doesn't get much more inspiring than that. But it was another time when I said, I WILL, and although it took so much courage, I could not deny that the Spirit had prompted me to do the Lord's will.

And so it is in my heart to let you know that I know the Lord prompts us through the Holy Ghost and that we can be instruments in His hands to help him help others. It is not always easys to discern the Spirit and I am still working on it even at my age, but it is a precious gift for which I will be eternally grateful.